Monday, November 28, 2005
To think back sometimes u are lucky enough.. at least u have frens who care for u.. but if it was me, i wonder if there is anyone who cares for me... for now only a few people... which is like only one or two?.. i don noe why.. people say i look arrogant.. do i look like one??? can anyone tell me what is wrong with me?? i do have frens but it seems like none cares for me..
So, i think i lead a sad life... haha.. maybe...
♥ a butterfly landed @ 9:27 AM
Friday, November 25, 2005
Well everyone has lots of desire.. but i think i had just what i want..
I have a family who loves me, frens and my lover who is also there when i need him.. Recently i accidentally broke something.. Then he tried to repair it but then nothing better... and it make everything worse..
So last two days i went to give him some money and so i have to meet him when he is working.. i was shocked to see him.. he is really unusual on that day.. while i was walking towards his office, he came out.. i was thinking that the guy who came out looks handsome from far but i just ignore thinking that he will be late... so i continue walking until that guy approach me.. i was a bit shock.. coz the handsome guy i saw doesn't come in mind that it was him!!
I covered my mouth which open very wide... I could not say anything to him.. i just pass him the money and go off.. a bit shy to see him... i don noe why... After three years with him, that is the first day that really makes me melt .. that makes me speechless.. makes me smile my whole journey.. but only for a day... haha..
but still im happy to be with him despite he is not that good looking like i sometimes dream of.. haha... We quarrelled almost everytime but then clear things up on the spot.. with things i go through with him make me love him more...
Next time will blog bout my family... they are another lovely and precious people to me..
♥ a butterfly landed @ 3:42 PM
Thursday, November 24, 2005
I have just uploaded my photos.. did it since morning.. watched The Maid.. thought it was supossed to be scared but it turn out not to be so scared.. i think The Eye is much better...
This is my favourite.. will try to watch every movie he acted...
Shah Rukh Khan
Just watched Veer-Zaara yesterday... It was ok.. but will be waitin for next week cos there is two parts.. yesterday was how veer meet zaara.. nothing much but will look forward to it next week..
Next is the Miss World 1994.....
Aishwarya Rai
I just like her looks.. She is beautiful!! but sadly she only like to act in sad, romantic stories.. should act different characters...
Next is a cute woman just like me ;)...
Juhi Chawla
Like her very much.. She is a sweet-looking woman... and i like the necklace in the pic.. it is very unique...
Another sexy woman...
Angelina Jolie
Yah... fall in love with her when i watched Mr. & Mrs. Smith though i have watched quite a few movies before that.. like Alexander the Great... like that movie cos there is a lot of meanings and the part where John and Jane was fighting in their house.. haha.. I guess u remember that..
This are the four favs of mine...
♥ a butterfly landed @ 12:27 PM
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
Today nothing much.. watched Lord of The Rings part 1 and part 2.. so disappointed could not find the last part which is the most interesting of all... After that, i watched the Series of Unfortunate Events by Jim Carey... It was quite interesting but not up to what i hear from others...
I will be watching The Maid maybe later... Now im hearing the cds that i ask my fren to burn for me... He is so nice... My frens are all busy with projects and so i ask this fren of mine to help me.. he got 3 cds for me... Thanks pal!!!
Just now the supervisor came and we showed him the work that we had done.. he said he have to present.. wondered why he must present.. but i think its none of my business.. rite??
Something happen yesterday.. a girl from KM also but biz stud came to our room and said that we are asked to go to the admin room.. Zaedah ask why and the girl said she is not sure... den she got a bit tense.. i had a lot of thoughts but nothing worse.. I was thinking that maybe we are supposed to sign in there from yesterday onwards but when we reached the admin room, the admin staff wanted our size for our TEP t-shirt.. everyone start to laugh...
After that, we went back to our room but something went in my mind.. I wonder if i have to pay for that shirt.. If i have to pay, that needs money and i don have much.. want to ask my parents but i couls not.. they themselves need money to carry on with our daily lives...
I work as a tutor but that is nothing much.. thought i could buy what i desire all this while but it seems to be out of my thoughts.. i should not have think of that.. i want an mp3 with fm radio but the cheapest is what i took a long time to save.. and when i have save enough to buy that, some problems come out and usually it needs money.. There are some things i desire but i think what i have is what i ought to have...
Today, i came to sch late... reach sch almost 10am.. woke up aroung 8.45am... im 15mins late and thought of not coming to sch.. but then my mum starts her nagging... so i get dressed as quickly as possible.. so here i am in sch blogging and doing other stuff which is not neccessary... hahaha...
♥ a butterfly landed @ 3:06 PM
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
So early to blog.. nothing much in sch... so what to do.. blog la.. this is what i do yesterday
Yesterday nothing much... same old day... slack and play alot of games.. slept in the afternoon.. thought of going to have a jog but then nobody wants to.. xue, ai ling busy and chun wentto meet candise... so me alone... then i have flu.. the whole damn day... watch hitch again with eric and joe... then everyone head for home and left me and eric.. then meet my dear frens and we go home...
Had dinner at LJS with my family... then played badminton with my sis but never sweat... hai.. it was windy yesterday so we never played much... then we went to the sculpture park at sengkang which is about 10 mins walk.. then we just walk around as there is nothing much...
yup.. then head home at 10pm.. so bored... thats all i did yesterday... and today, i was shock to see chun alone... thought will be only left me and chun but then there is another two... so have to bear with this boredness... another boring day....
♥ a butterfly landed @ 9:20 AM
Sunday, November 20, 2005
Juz started KM and in three weeks time I will end my TEP. Glancing back, i realise that KM is very slack.. I watched about 7 movies last week and played games until sian... we had meetings but only took about 2 hours in that week... during luch, we can take about two hours... and still our supervisor did not check... on wed siew chun is not here... she was called by ARDC supervisor to amend some things... so i was so called alone here as the rest know each other quite well.. but then i watched movies with them and it was great..
As far as I can remember, I watched The Incredibles, The Polar Express, Mr. and Mrs Smith twice, wedding crushers, four brothers and hitch... Games... i played crazy taxi, learn how to play CS ( very poor) i shot the wrong person... played puzzle fighter again... and i lose again and again.. so bored..
Met my sweetheart four times straight... and a lot of things happen.. On thurs I thought of buying food for my class bbq but they said i don need to buy any so i went to meet him at bedok.. thought of playing pool but i was too late for that.. As far as i remember, i never had breakfast with him and on fri I had one.. so happy.. he also send me to sch... then on sat he accompanied me to bbq.. Im so happy that i got to meet my frens and him also... but sadly i have to leave earlier.. he have some function to attend... i think i left the earliest... After we went to the function, we met his fren and played games.. AGAIN!! Then on sun, he asked my help to clean his van... cleaned until about 7pm... from 4.30pm... At about 8pm, we played LAN game.. it was very fun... but im still learning...
After all that, im worn out.. a bit pissed off with some ppl also but i think i don have to mention it.. i just think of something... frens are sometimes fucked up... i feel that frens can be a bastard even if u do something great for them... they will be with u when they have no one else but will dump u and might totally forget u when they are happy...
For my frens, i may not have done anything great for u ppl but i don want to be a tree or a statue where ppl walk past and never notice it.. As far as i have lived, i don have any frens who will be there for me.. i have one but he also disappeared just like that... i miss him but i know he is heart broken.. im sorry for that as i cant help it...
To my sweetheart, im sorry for the radio... i knocked on it and it did not work.. even the lights... i really din mean it...
Signin off....... me.. sweetie
♥ a butterfly landed @ 5:54 PM
Thursday, November 10, 2005
Yeah!!! Im changing stopover next week. Graduating soon. Have to do a presentation tmrw. Im doing about blogging. Its a Community Learning(CL in short). Now im taking a break. So tired of cracking my brain to have good words in my report. Have to hand in today i think.
Enough of things in sch. On monday i was very upset... a bit dissappointed with my bf... cos i went to his house for raya on sunday and something happen... was really upset over things acted by him.. my heart was always crying on that day especially when im alone or bored.. when doing nothing... but getting over it as days goes on... to u switheart.. i noe u have the every rite to do that but please remember me.. i may say sarcastic words to u but that was all the feelings at that moment.. though that was a small matter to u, it means a lot to me.. cos i love u so much and no one can steal u away.. but if u want to go away from me, i have to let u go...
To that girl who try to steal my switheart away, please think it over... i will not do anything to u unless u go beyond the line... there is always limit to patience... i will blow out everything (like the lava coming out of the volcano) until im on top of ur head and u under the ground... that is my promise... if that does not work, i will leave it to Allah s.w.t. Kau mesti dapat balasan yang setimpal....
On tuesday, we had pizza for lunch but i went for jogging before that. My luck was not with me on that day. When we cant finish the pizza, we plan to play the no. game. I kena the first one. Have to eat wedges and a packet of chilli. It was very hot at first.. but after i had another bite of the wedges, it went off.. haha.. then the game continued as there is another three slices to finish... Paul kena first and then xuehui... then it was me again... haiyah.. and some more i got the largest piece la... that is even worse... i exercise earlier and now its back.. *sigh... xuehui happily chose a smaller piece for herself...
Yesterday at last i got to eat my fishball noodles!!! i was craving for that... yah.. since last month la but cannot eat last month cos fasting mah... went to eat with hui shan and stracy... in the evening, i was caught of wearing sandals.... then have to buy a shoe which cover the toes... so sian.. i don have much money and still have to buy another pair...
So... at night when i have reached home, i went to compasspoint to buy a pair.. then i met sheena.. my fren whom i always work with throughout my poly years.... she work in metro at cosmetics section... then i browse at the shoe section to look for a pair.. have a few but the cheap one not nice and uncomfortable.. so bought the 40 bucks shoe.. fork out my hong bao money and the rest paid by my mother.. so swit of her.. my mum was also broke cos raya.. have to give hong bao to small kids also..
Today, im chatting with my cousin.. thinking about her, im just feeling angry and sad at the same time.. it was all about the past.. i realise that everybody try to step on my family members head which is not fair.. i will have to do something to those who try to do that.. haha
Oh yah! i went to play pool on tues with art, paul, rena and wei hao if im correct about spelling his name.. i almost won one game but did not.. went home around 7.30pm... poor rena have to carry art's and my bag to grassroots.. thanks!!
I think that is all i did for this week... lots of feeling i have to go through this week.. i can draw a graph of how i feel for this week... Haha..
♥ a butterfly landed @ 1:05 PM
